How do I live...

At the moment my world's upside down. Everything I expected to happen didn't work out.
Jack asked me to think positive. And I do...for him, for his expectations and I wish he will reach his targets.
When I walked to the doctor today obviously you can see that I don't feel good. I'll be off work till new year and maybe longer if my situation doesn't change till that point.

Fresh air is necessary. That's waht they all tell me. And I am working on it. I try to sort everything out and make sure, that my new year starts better than it finishes.

Thanks to the 2 most important persons in my life now who help me to get back in the line.
Jack, Isil: love you!