9 days left

I am really scared the closer the day of the take off comes. I can't imagine to be in that stupid plane that long and that scares the sh.. out of me.
Jack tries to calm me down and tells me that everything's gonna be okay, but in my head this doesn't reach the centre.
That's the reason why I am not looking forward to the trip at the moment. Don't get this wrong; I can't wait to meet Jack's family and friends there, but I just would like to avoid a flight as long as this gonna be.
I don't know what's the problem, because it's definatley not my first flight and the longest one was 13 hours in a row - and I survived that! Don't know. Most time I am on a plane it's like me sitting in a surreal world and I don't really recognize the height and everything. But every weird moving or weird sound makes me shaking.
I wish I could drive by car or train! :-)
ah...I'll laugh about this as soon as I get off the plane at Sydney airport, but till this time there is a day to manage I won't enjoy at all.